happy camper

im honestly a SUPER happy camper. today made me think about the future. like im ok about the present but the future is like coming faster than i would've expected.

"Don't like the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game." first time my mom heard that quote today. and she actually liked it. i had to explain it yeah but she got it eventually. if there's a opportunity given to you that you thought you never thought you would actually get, go for it! i know someone in this situation but they're afraid to get burned. my family has a new motto (that i thought of so if you take it, i will find you): "we are Phoenix, we burn into our own ashes but we get back up." then my mom added "GO JONAS, BURNIN' UP" -__- anyways, even if you're scared, take the risk of getting burned. forget the morals for that split second and make the choice. that's what i do most of the time. look how that turned out(:

i actually want a tattoo that says "Reckless" on the back of my shoulder. this is related to this post, keep up. reason why i want that word is because everyone in life needs to be a little reckless. live life a little bit more free. dont have boundaries. NEVER regret anything you do. there are so many meanings to the word im kinda running out on what else to say..bottom line, every action has a reaction. every choice has a consequence.

the quote i will never forget was when i almost failed middle school. at my mom's old office, i always hung out with the receptionist. he told me something that i kept til this day.

"A smart person learns from their own mistake. A wise person learns from other people's mistakes."

-Lovebug

hey, hottie, im over here(:

i should be scared..

so my tita dee's (who gets me into DWTS) son, Kuya Louie, is a pretty cool yet busy guy. i met him at elaine's debut cuz...well to be honest i dont know why. he was like giving us the PacMan fight on dvd and stuff. he's pretty chill. anyways, a whileeeee back, like my first dancing with the stars taping, tita dee told me that her son works for the manager in the Jonas Brothers. (insert trippin out) she told us this while we were walking towards the gate to get in so i couldnt look like a complete retard, hyperventilating over that.

now i found out that he's actually in the management team. O_- i know...well my tita dee called a couple days before the August 7th concert and said that Louie was in town. my mom said that she'll tell him about it and call if he'll come through. well..he didnt. haha! no worries, at lease he remembered. so tita dee called my mom again and said that Louie was sorry that he couldn't be there but said he'll make it up to me.

last night while i was just normally admiring my newest poster additions, i thought of how Louie can make it up to me. so i asked my mom "oh hey what if i just give something to him so the Jonas Brothers can sign it?" and next thing you know, she throws a curveball saying "oh your tita dee called me for like a minute asking how to spell your name and then said bye"

O_O

.....? EXACTLY!! I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO EXPECT NOW!! geez..after i freaked out (high pitched WHAT?! and incoherent words thrown in), she told me to wait for my birthday..for those who dont know when my birthday is..

OCTOBER 7TH

thats like FOR-EV-ER in my world!

eff this post...this computer is really pissing me off

To Whomever Comes Across This

hi. its late for some people but for me its kinda early to turn in. i got a wake up call this morning..like literally, someone called me and woke me up. you dont wanna hear my morning voice. sounds horrible. anyways, the whole point of the conversation was because someone "stumbled" across someone's blog and went nuts. its was bound to happen sooner or later..guess it happened later.

as much as i want to stay out of it, some parts can be blamed on me. "watching tv": my joke. anything that was bolded and made no sense: also me. i think thats it. everybody has inside jokes and most of the stuff i joke about are inside jokes cuz it doesnt leave 3 people. i feel like im losing my point here...

at this point, i really dont know what to say to this situation. i've been watching it from the sidelines for a while now and lately, im use to it. im catching the drift that its mostly denial. thats just what i think. yep, i lost what i was going to say...i should probably think of what to say before i start to rant.

called me stupid or an idiot, go ahead. its not the first time. im not putting myself down. i have enough self-esteem thank you very much.

uhh...where was i going with this? fuck, i dont even know if you read this shit. but if you do, and you know who im talking to, i DARE you to do something. go rally up your friends. spread the word. do whatever you like. this may not be my battle but im sure as hell gunna fight like it is. shit, i dont even know if this is gunna be something bigger. some people dont care about whatever the crap is going on right now, thats reasonable.

i should probably mention something: when YOU think no one's watching you, (:

GOODLIFE

-Lovebug

i'd do what he said....3 more days biznatches



shit...now that i look at it, this blog made no sense..hope someone gets what im trying to say