Hi there.

You are amazing. Please stop saying otherwise. You are the most amazing person I've ever met. Don't forget me, yeah? Just because we're growing up doesn't mean we have to be grown up just yet.

Love you and hope you love me for who I am and what I do.

flu season

uhhh..hi(: i think im catch the flu again. lets hope not. its not too fun to catch it especially on my birthday week): i am thinking about going to dinner tonight cuz im not too sure about it right now. if this is the flu, then today is my good day(: if it was a bad day, i wouldnt really be up to actually updating my blog.

nothing hasnt really happend since august...kinda..i cant believe i really didnt update for like 2 months. hmm..see what twitter and facebook does to people?

oh, i am now 16(: yesterday was freakin awesome. waking up to texts from a bunch of people, people on facebook and twitter saying "happy birthday" to me and just everyone at school who saw my locker and yelled happy birthday to me freakin made my day(: i was feeling really really sick yesterday and that was the sucky part but luckly most of my teachers let me sleep. after school i wasnt really up for actually going to disneyland so i just went and told them its my birthday and they gave me a pin(: i also got my annual pass and now its finally kicking in that I HAVE A ANNUAL PASS! i can go to disneyland any day now!! woooo!

i should put something Jonas related on here...NICK JONAS IS NOW 17!!!(:

i think that was good enough.

FLUSUCKS

-Lovebug

never gets old...(:

happy camper

im honestly a SUPER happy camper. today made me think about the future. like im ok about the present but the future is like coming faster than i would've expected.

"Don't like the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game." first time my mom heard that quote today. and she actually liked it. i had to explain it yeah but she got it eventually. if there's a opportunity given to you that you thought you never thought you would actually get, go for it! i know someone in this situation but they're afraid to get burned. my family has a new motto (that i thought of so if you take it, i will find you): "we are Phoenix, we burn into our own ashes but we get back up." then my mom added "GO JONAS, BURNIN' UP" -__- anyways, even if you're scared, take the risk of getting burned. forget the morals for that split second and make the choice. that's what i do most of the time. look how that turned out(:

i actually want a tattoo that says "Reckless" on the back of my shoulder. this is related to this post, keep up. reason why i want that word is because everyone in life needs to be a little reckless. live life a little bit more free. dont have boundaries. NEVER regret anything you do. there are so many meanings to the word im kinda running out on what else to say..bottom line, every action has a reaction. every choice has a consequence.

the quote i will never forget was when i almost failed middle school. at my mom's old office, i always hung out with the receptionist. he told me something that i kept til this day.

"A smart person learns from their own mistake. A wise person learns from other people's mistakes."

-Lovebug

hey, hottie, im over here(:

i should be scared..

so my tita dee's (who gets me into DWTS) son, Kuya Louie, is a pretty cool yet busy guy. i met him at elaine's debut cuz...well to be honest i dont know why. he was like giving us the PacMan fight on dvd and stuff. he's pretty chill. anyways, a whileeeee back, like my first dancing with the stars taping, tita dee told me that her son works for the manager in the Jonas Brothers. (insert trippin out) she told us this while we were walking towards the gate to get in so i couldnt look like a complete retard, hyperventilating over that.

now i found out that he's actually in the management team. O_- i know...well my tita dee called a couple days before the August 7th concert and said that Louie was in town. my mom said that she'll tell him about it and call if he'll come through. well..he didnt. haha! no worries, at lease he remembered. so tita dee called my mom again and said that Louie was sorry that he couldn't be there but said he'll make it up to me.

last night while i was just normally admiring my newest poster additions, i thought of how Louie can make it up to me. so i asked my mom "oh hey what if i just give something to him so the Jonas Brothers can sign it?" and next thing you know, she throws a curveball saying "oh your tita dee called me for like a minute asking how to spell your name and then said bye"

O_O

.....? EXACTLY!! I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO EXPECT NOW!! geez..after i freaked out (high pitched WHAT?! and incoherent words thrown in), she told me to wait for my birthday..for those who dont know when my birthday is..

OCTOBER 7TH

thats like FOR-EV-ER in my world!

eff this post...this computer is really pissing me off

To Whomever Comes Across This

hi. its late for some people but for me its kinda early to turn in. i got a wake up call this morning..like literally, someone called me and woke me up. you dont wanna hear my morning voice. sounds horrible. anyways, the whole point of the conversation was because someone "stumbled" across someone's blog and went nuts. its was bound to happen sooner or later..guess it happened later.

as much as i want to stay out of it, some parts can be blamed on me. "watching tv": my joke. anything that was bolded and made no sense: also me. i think thats it. everybody has inside jokes and most of the stuff i joke about are inside jokes cuz it doesnt leave 3 people. i feel like im losing my point here...

at this point, i really dont know what to say to this situation. i've been watching it from the sidelines for a while now and lately, im use to it. im catching the drift that its mostly denial. thats just what i think. yep, i lost what i was going to say...i should probably think of what to say before i start to rant.

called me stupid or an idiot, go ahead. its not the first time. im not putting myself down. i have enough self-esteem thank you very much.

uhh...where was i going with this? fuck, i dont even know if you read this shit. but if you do, and you know who im talking to, i DARE you to do something. go rally up your friends. spread the word. do whatever you like. this may not be my battle but im sure as hell gunna fight like it is. shit, i dont even know if this is gunna be something bigger. some people dont care about whatever the crap is going on right now, thats reasonable.

i should probably mention something: when YOU think no one's watching you, (:

GOODLIFE

-Lovebug

i'd do what he said....3 more days biznatches



shit...now that i look at it, this blog made no sense..hope someone gets what im trying to say

just one of those days..

hmm...i really wanna just sit outside and type but its too bright and my eyes'll hurt.

Theresa went to Steubie for the weekend. i think she's coming back tomorrow..i dunno..she tried being a rebel and hide her phone from the people at the retreat but i guess she got caught XD good effort! i would do the same but i would hide it like on me. its not like they'll frisk me...if they did, i'll kick their ass..

this computer like turns off on me sometimes..O_O anyways, i was watching this youtube video of a sneak peek of new moon. gotta admit, i wanna see the movie now. im not gunna nerd out on it though..i do that for anything Jonas(:

crap i lost my train of thought..stupid cakes of food network..

well while i try to remember what i was talking about, how bout to keep buggin Jay about her suprise? the last suprise is a big suprise. the first one is ehhh...i dunno. you be the judge once you find out what it is(: hints start next week. that would suck if i create so much hype on it and its not even that big. muhaha...but then again, it could be huge O_o you are going to your FIRST Jonas concert so thats a step..i should stop typing about this now..might imply something..

that last blog was a bit serious..that side of me comes out here and there. but then i joke about it later on. life doesnt always have to be serious. where's the fun in that? "i wanna feel reckless, wanna live it up just because..." life without risks is like me being smart. see? no fun.

oh, big ups and shout out to Julia Pham aka @phamous cuz if i never contacted her, i would still be on my laptop, talking to myself and trying to find the perfect seat for Jay..im a perfectionist at times

ok ima keep being a twitter whore

@CAITLINANNELB

-Lovebug

i heard he told someone to feel his grapes...O_o ..uhmm..bye

Late Night Discoveries and a Story

twitter is a small world. finding people isnt that difficult. finding people you having heard of or seen in a while isnt difficult. finding out that those people have a blog isnt difficult. finding out that person is totally different from the last time you remembered seeing them is...kinda weird. in a good way.

as i was reading said blog, they totally wrote things that i never knew they can write. yeah yeah times change, people change but sometimes its hard to digest that. they used their blog as like a place to totally vent in a way where...well i cant totally explain it. i never knew that someone who was younger than me can talk about stuff in a mature manner..unlike this weird blog where its pure randomness.

i was passing by the older posts and im guessing that the blogger (im not gunna name who it is) now goes to a catholic high school..is a freshman..is working on a relationship with a guy that isnt really working out (?)..and wears a purity ring.

yeah, that caught my eye. and the fact that it was in 14 point font, bolded and in silver. there's a point to this entry and its coming up.

i bet some people dont think i would be the type of person wearing a purity cuz when you first met me and started making dirty jokes, i made it dirty-er. dont deny, you know you were made fun of by me! reason for that: i grew up totally different than everyone around me. i can never say i had a best friend from kindergarden that i can tell anything that's awkward to them and be totally comfortable about it. i can never say "oh i know how you feel" because sometimes, if not most times, i really dont. i can never say i wasnt tempted.

me? tempted? whether you believe it or not, its happened in the past. i try not to bring up the past but its something relavant to what im getting at. temptation is everywhere, espeically in high school. but temptation in middle school? even end of elementary school?

6th grade kinda did it for me. public school ruin minds. trust me. private schools may be gay cuz its small, you wear uniforms, the education is hard but you're better there than some other schools. shifting from a public school, to a christian middle school, to a catholic high school kinda made it difficult for me to actually find God. i had all these questions that i didnt think would be answered.

most of them involved temptation. i will admit this. first ever. most of my relationships i've been in were mostly physical (not like "I WANNA KICK YOUR ASS") not that kind. catch my drift cuz im not going in detail about that. i think the reason that it was like that is cuz of me. yeah..elementary school tends to stay in your mind. "whatever you do now changes everything you do later" is what my science teacher use to lecture us everyday. elementary school changed how i look at a relationship i have with another guy.

this is why i wear a purity ring. sure you can say to yourself "i'll just wait til marriage". i need a little reminder and its that silver Tiffany band on my ring finger. i want to get rid of what happened in the past. i dont want to think of every relationship as just something physical. i want to actually have a relationship where there physicality isnt as important as the effort of (insert L word) put into it. thats all on me.

tell me if you got lost. cuz i can understand if you did. its close to 1 in the morning for me.

one last thing for me to say..

LOVE(:

-Lovebug

"It doesn't matter if he world is pulling you down; With Christ you have everything." - Nicholas Jerry Jonas